Waiting for that call....

So the calls for American Ninja Warrior Season 13 have started going out. It is weird because this is just my 2nd year to put in a submission video. I try to be open and honest about my story because I feel that someone could relate to it. I do not have this whole sobriety thing completely figured but I do know what works for me. Some days the things I do work and then other days they don't. I have had quite a bit of positive feedback on my story and my social media and it has been amazing! There are the ones though who have nothing to say but negativity.

In just the short amount of time that this year has begun, it has been overwhelming and sometimes absolutely ridiculous. I do share a lot of my life with people on my social media but in the same aspect, I also keep quite a bit of that private. It has shown me that no matter what you post or what you do, people will always try to pull you down or try to control your every move.

I have always been pretty wild in every aspect and I don't do things in moderation usually. So one thing that I am not good with is control. I do not like being told what to do or how I am supposed to do things. I also cannot post stuff without hurting people's feelings and it is absolutely ridiculous. I have to be mindful of other people's feelings but when it comes to mine, I have to endure it. The whole thing gets to be too much sometimes.

As for other things in my life, I have taken the semester off to concentrate more on Ninja training. It has gone well so far. I do miss school but with everything going on right now, I do not want to be stuck at school with a mask on. I think it saved my sanity to take the semester off though. I have been concentrating more on getting more training in as well as making sure I eat right.

So I am hoping to post more on here but it is sometimes hard with my schedule. Also, there have been many people who have reached out about their sobriety and I appreciate that more than you guys will ever know!!