Progression

It has taken me a long time to get where I am today. It has taken a lot of sleepless nights, hardwork, literally blood, sweat and tears.

Even to this day though, I would not give up anything I have in my life right now to go back.

People will usually ask you, "If you could do it all over again, would you?"

That's one question I have thought about before.

My answer would be no. The life that I have lived got me to the life I have now.

It has helped mold and shape who I've become.

It has helped me be strong enough to share my story and inspire others.

Do I get upset that I am not where I want to be?

Sometimes. I try to remember that progress takes time and yet 10 years down the road and there are things that haven't progressed in my life.

I sat here in my apartment as I am packing and think to myself, "You got what you wanted by the end of May."

That was one of my goals. Did I want to do it by myself? Absolutely!

It helps though when you have amazing people in your life who help you grow and progress though.

I used to surround myself with the wrong people and now I am constantly surrounded by amazing and inspiring people.

I have leaders in my life who help lead me at work.

I have some pretty bad ass women who inspire me daily at the gym.

I have some amazing people in recovery who are in my life who constantly remind me that it takes time.

I don't know if I'll be patient enough for the things that I want by the end of the year.

Patience is definitely not one of my strong characteristics.

So, what I'll do is just keeping working on the things that need work.

I'll push myself everyday, like I have been and try to progress the things that I can on my own.