Perception

A lot of things in my life have changed drastically over the last few months.

Which means the next few months are also going to drastically change.

I've noticed over this last week that some people don't like it when you are winning.

They say you're selfish with your time because you're doing the things that make you happy.

It's funny that people will say you won't work with them when they are doing the exact same thing.

My time goes where I want it to go.

Not where someone guilt trips me into being.

Am I selfish? Probably more than I should be.

I'm allowed to be though.

In the last few months I won't let people make me feel bad or guilt trip me into doing things I don't want to or want to feel.

I have goals and dreams.

Dreams and goals that are being fulfilled this year!!

One journey has already started and while I'm so excited for it I'm also very nervous about it.

There are days when I feel like I don't deserve those things because of what my past looks like.

When you work hard for it though then you absolutely deserve it.

You always hear people say, "Manifest that shit"

I don't believe in manifesting anything.

I believe in hard work.

You want it? Work for it!!

I have been working hard for the last couple of months. 75 Hard has not been easy.

This is my last week doing 75 Hard and there are so many things that I've learned.

I've learned what my mind and body are capable of doing.

I can do hard things.

I don't like being told that I can't do something. When people say that, I have a tendency to try to prove them wrong.

As a recovering alcoholic it's never in the middle.

I am always one extreme to the other.

There have been a few times that my body has tried to get sick on me or just wants to give out.

Those days were some of the hardest.

Waking up with migraines so bad that made me nauseous to the point I couldn't think.

I still had to workout.

Not being able to eat chocolate every day was also pretty hard. I love chocolate and that's what usually helps my cravings.

I may have been crazy to start something like this so soon after my dad and I wish I would have done it sooner.

It has helped me so much.

I was able to focus on those things for the day rather than how I feel about how my life is changing.

I know that will eventually bite me in the ass because I'm not dealing with what is happening right now.

I know some people think that I'm so open about my life on social media.

To an extent, I am.

You only see what I want you to see though.

I set the stage for how you perceive my life.

Think about that.