Living Life Thru Social Media
5 years ago, I didn't have social media. I didn't have Facebook, Instagram, Twitter, Snapchat or TikTok.
In the last 4 years though, I accumulated those all.
I wasn't sure what I wanted to do with my accounts that I had created.
I knew I didn't want it to be like it was so many years ago.
When I had Facebook and MySpace they were both constantly centered around my drinking and partying.
I wanted to show people how fun and awesome my life was but even if it looks good in pictures that doesn't mean that's how your life is.
Same goes for my life now.
I can sit here and post about all these places I go.
The people I get to be around.
The things I get to experience.
Everyone does that though. They will sit there and post about their "perfect" families and relationships.
That's not how it is in real life a lot of the time though.
Mine is exactly like that.
Yes, I will post stuff about family and the friends I'm around.
A lot of my life though is spent alone.
I don't have a significant other I come home to every day.
I don't have friends I hang out with on a daily basis.
I don't have a boyfriend I go out of town with or see on a regular basis.
My life consists of me working constantly.
If I'm not at home working then I'm at the gym working out.
If I'm not working out then I'm at the Ninja Gym coaching.
So, why do I stay so busy?
I'd rather be so busy that I don't feel like I'm alone.
Does it work?
No.
Do I spend more time on social media than I should?
Absolutely.
My social life is on social media. In real life, I maybe get about 30 minutes of social interaction a day.
My relationship is over a phone 90% of the time.
My interaction with my family is thru a phone.
No one says how hard it is to constantly feel alone.
We don't want to seem weak or too needy.
It's hard for me because I am such a social person. I love being around people.
I don't want to live my life on social media but right now it seems better than constantly being alone.
Although, when we spend time with ourselves while people don't make the time for us then we realize we might no longer need them.