I am over this!

It has been exactly 5 months since I was laid off. Within the first month of getting laid off it was a nice little break from school and work for me. I still tried to find a job though because I don't really like being at home 24/7. As the months progressed though, things got worse sitting at home. There was always that thought in my mind that I wouldn't find another job before August and that worried me a lot. It is now August and I still do not have a job. I have put in for so many job postings but I always get an email back saying that they weren't interested.

I know that there are many people who suffer with mental health issues and I feel like right now is worse than ever. No one talks about how sitting at home alone can play a big role in your mental health getting worse. The depression sinks in and so does the loneliness. There is only so much that you can do at home until it just becomes redundant. I feel like the longer everything is shut down, the more people we lose from suicide. That isn't something a lot of people like to talk about and yet we need to talk about this stuff. I know plenty of people who have a hard time with their mental health. I struggle with being alone constantly and not having anyone here.

There is so much stuff that is going on in the world right now and I feel like there is so much more hatred than anything. There are tons of people going through hardships right now and instead of being hateful and miserable to others, I think we need to be understanding of other's situations. I know this will never happen but it is wishful thinking.

As for things in my life, I competed in the UNAA Regionals July 17 and came in 4th place. I did however qualify for World Finals so that is exciting. I am hoping that I can train harder than I have ever trained before so that I can place at Finals. I know it won't be easy but nothing in my life has been easy and I have made it this far. I will be looking forward to seeing my growth within the next month and a half!!