They say that grief is the love that you still have left over for the person that you lost and you’re not sure what to do with that love.
It can also cause rifts between relationships, whether it be family, friends and significant others.
They want to be able to help you. They want to help you carry that load of grief.
For me, I don’t want that help. I’ve relied on people in the past for some kind of help when I needed it the most, only to be left disappointed.
So I got used to carrying those burdens alone.
I still continue to do so even now.
When your person asks to help you carry it though, it’s hard to let them in to that part. Whether it be sitting and listening or being an emotional companion at grief groups.
I haven’t been the best when it comes to grieving because I don’t like feeling weak.
It has been a rough journey. Especially when I’m trying to stay sober as well.
I’ve been told that I handle everything so well and yet people don’t know what is really going on.
People can seem to have it together in public while they’re breaking down in private.
In this coming week I have a lot going on.
I have decided to join a grief support group to see if maybe it can help me.
I’m not ready for this and I’m not sure what to expect.
I’ll give y’all an update next Sunday.
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